Thundercats are Go

Over the last year or so, chance would have it that a sequence of events would occur in such I way that somehow had an epiphany. There wasn't a heavens-parting-choir-of-angels kind of moment, just a few weeks long realization that I was not living a life that made my life worthwhile for me or others. In other words I was a bitch. I really already knew this, but made excuses to myself and others for why I was the way I was, but now I see that I was just scared and full or self-loathing. So in the last year I have really pushed myself to change and put others first, to take chances, and to be responsible for my actions and feelings. So far it's working out nicely minus a few learning experiences including; meaning well while helping depressed friends - but maybe causing more problems, being a little too bluntly honest with a grad professor, losing patience with others, and a messy political love triangle.

Not too bad though, considering I learned from those experiences and won't be making the same mistakes again.

Honestly - I am happier than I can ever remember being, no only from my new found self-confidence, but more so from the fact that my so-called "new self" doesn't hurt others like I used to. Seeing myself make my family and friends glad instead of miserable is a wonderful feeling.

To quote that classy poet T.I., "No regrets I'm blessed today, the old me dead and gone away..."


I'm getting a little narcissistic, so I'll try to get to the point. Along with all this new-age self-realization has come a powerful desire to go and start somewhere new and face some new challenges. As I am for the most part wrapping up my grad courses this spring, I had the awe inspiring realization that I could go anywhere next year. I knew that I wanted to teach (that is one thing about me that has never changed) and so I started looking for jobs and programs all over. After some serious months of research, applying, and daydreaming I narrowed my choices down and waited to hear back from programs and school districts. After some torturing weeks of waiting I heard back from my top choice program, which I promptly (and with much screaming) accepted - and in July I will be moving to American Samoa to teach.

Well that catches you up to the present. But you might be asking yourself... "Self, why on earth is this chick making a blog, and why in heck am I reading it?"

I don't know why you're reading this, or if anyone is, but I decided to write this blog mostly to keep tabs on myself. Sometimes I get too caught up in whats going on in my lovely hectic life to be introspective, and I hope that this blog will give me the opportunity to self-reflect and examine my actions as well as my thoughts on life in general.